Tuesday, December 25, 2012

矛盾依然

眼泪就快要飙出来,若真如此,那不就证明我更小孩子气,是个19岁的小孩吗?

忍住眼泪,真的是长大了的表现?

不是吧,不是。
眼泪总是要落下,不可能一杯装汽水的杯子永远是满的。
但是条件是眼泪是绝对给自己的,或者是在值得信任的人的面前落下的。
要是在众人面前当下眼泪轻易掉下,那就太脆弱了。
脆弱也不等于小孩子啊?
但间接着联系到当下状况,人啊,就是要懂得做人的道理,所以如果违反了这道理,那就成为了小孩子气。
哈哈,小孩子气=小气
Yay~你被贴上新标签了,恭喜恭喜。


原来,我好怕她。
只要她一句尖锐的言语,我就整个傻住了,被影响了。
事实上,这种情绪很容易被传染,她又被我感染了。
本来是我在闹,结果我还得受气,难受得也是自己。
我有什么办法,只要被说,我就一定会思考那些话语,自然会被影响啊。
然后这些循环就会被重复,重复,一直重复。

原来,是我心软。 
原来,她硬起来我真的无法抵挡。
我退了好大一步,动也不敢动。



我不知道。
我好害怕,我不知该怎么做
没有人教我,我真的不会。
不是我依赖(是,在她眼里我还是个很依赖的人),但我真的不知道怎么去应对。


又过了一个假期
我还是没长大

好多话没说清楚    我们双方
结果我好听话  结果  我一事无成 没有地位  还是小孩子 

话说出来其实还是有好多矛盾
不说不如更好?
不,那样更不好



垃圾不倒  会生虫。


*泪哭干以后,我想跳下水游泳。



小小世界
1.03am
26/12/2012

Christmas

I m not Christian.
Christmas? YES!!
I just love Christmas feelings!
The songs, Santa Claus, Christmas trees, the Reindeer, the countdown, the party, present exchange~
All sounds so fun and exciting!
And people celebrate it!
Party and present exchange.



On Christmas's eve, I saw there was a blood donation campaign when I shopped at Jusco.
I wanted to donate my blood, that would be the lovely present for the people who need it in emergency, isn't it?
I did not make it anyway.
I was afraid maybe, there's not much people donate blood there...
And I am regretting now...


Christmas should be more of Giving than Gifting presents,I thought.
Say YAY to them who spent their Christmas day on giving out, to orphans or people who need helps.


and Merry Christmas Everyone!

Saturday, December 22, 2012

Be Brave




I said I like dancing ballet, I wanna do it, to myself.
Then I started tell my friends, trustful one, then one by one...
I was afraid of being laugh, I will be a laughing stock, I feel embarrasing...

Then I talked about it to people around me, my friends,my mum, my aunt...
Not much people care about it actually, because this is not their dream, it's mine.
I wish someone could understand me feeling, the passion to do something, but it rarely happens.
It's a hard time when I talk to someone who is not supportive for me, the don't know what is the passion and they said the cons, only.
Of course, you can find someone who support you-good friends.
I really appreciate who support me and care about how is it, do I start learning yet? or bla..bla...bla...
I really happy that they show their cares.

There was an afternoon, I was sitting on my chair beside my bed and called again and again for the number of one dance academy at Makhota.
No one picks up the phone....
Called over and over...
Then after I gave up calling, a call from an unknown shown in my phone, I picked up with pretend to be calm heart.
It's the academy calling!
The people on the phone seems like understanding and the attitude is quite favourable.
The call gave me hope!
I knew it! I knew it!
I knew there's a way for this late beginner to learn this dance-Ballet!
Private class!
It's expensive, though.
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Because of transport and bla bla bla have to be considered, I still havent take a real action to chase after my dream yet.





Now, I brave up myself to ask my friend who is a ballerina about the fees of higher grade of ballet.
Because I wanna know the line of it, still have to consider cause imnotrich.
Andyouknowwhat! I actually always not dare to talk to her...and now I am asking her , in fb chat, though.
Claps for myself!

Yay! I gonna dance dance dance dance dance dance!



By the way, two events invitations come to me in one night. (I did not mean anything)
I feel damn happy! Because I always like gathering or party with friends! especially at the most important moment like Year End and Christmas! XDD
It's like sharing the 38 and happy moments with friends!

The most happiest event is to have a Christmas dinner with my BFFs, first time ever at OT!
It's going to happen tomorrow! I am so looking forward to it!





Hope all things go well.
Because, like Abigail, me too, hate changes, of things I already have a beautiful imagination of it.



Sunday, December 16, 2012

Dream chaser


I got these photos from my aunt's phone, as I am now at her house, I just wanna post some photos that I took here...

During my sis's wedding buffet...








________________________________________________________________________
All the photos above just for me to easy save them on my computer. 


NOW
Here's the Important one!!!
TADAAA~~~~

Our pianist!
Cheah Li Anne!


气质美女 ; )



First Zhipai with her XD
(She doesn't like to take photos so... the first ever picture with her in zhipai mode)

The decoration there is awesome =D


Can't see clearly?


Here's the nearer one...

Spotlight!


Good show! 
(grab her for another photo after the end of the show XP)

When the performers were performing on the stage, it reminds me of my dream, dancing. 
It's just so similar to dance. First you go to sign up for the lessons, then you learnt and paid hard work to it.
When the times come, you are on the stage to show others your dream, how you have come over everything and now you achieve what you always dream for. 
The moment we called Dream comes true.
Then you go on and on to chase for your dream to a higher level.
But what we always need to keep in mind is passion, at least passion is consider important to me to achieve a dream.


Congratulation! Princess Anne! ; )
and Good Luck for your piano exam in the future.


Xoxo,
Dare to Dream
16.12.2012


Thursday, December 13, 2012

女孩。女人

重逢之际,我在汽车后座看着两人的背面,顿然发觉,我们已好久不见。


在12.12.2012这天,我们的无意安排竟然是落在这天。
是不知这有什么特别,大家很爱强调这日子就是了,那我就跟跟风吧~

我们几乎很少一起照相了。
最后一次一起拍照,是多久以前的事呢?


这次HANG OUT,我们约好一起穿裙,还有高跟鞋。
安娜姑娘很怕冷,外套不够还手套,两条围巾,一条被我抢过来穿的袜子(不知是不是因为这样她收起来没有穿>.< )
玻璃鞋的灰姑娘看见平底鞋就一直呱呱叫~







或许童话里也有不为人知的一面,其实灰姑娘不爱穿高跟鞋。

下次出门,一定要拍照留念=D

*距离19岁,倒数三个月。

Yean Yee
13.12.2012

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

许愿盒里的字条



我想不看,不听,不说
就穿上舞鞋,飘扬起舞,随着音乐陶醉在优雅的舞步~


我喜欢芭蕾。
那时我的梦想,小时候来不及坚持的梦想。

如今,我决定了重新追逐着可贵的梦想
但是,声音从不同的方向传来

“跳啦跳啦”
“脚还不够粗,还要跳?”
“跳芭蕾舞的很傻~”。。。不知名声音,言者才是傻子!
“学费那么贵,不如去学英文”

这些声音,我都有听进去。

除了芭蕾,我还发现现代舞,也是一种延续芭蕾的舞蹈,自由活动性较大,不太过于注重在脚~
如果可以,我想两个都学,但是一步一步来。


说实话,在我想要计划学芭蕾时,我完全没有想到腿会粗的事。
好吧!就算腿会粗,也没关系。
至少我的人生,有梦想有热爱做的事,而不是有一双明明热爱舞蹈却只有用不到的肌肉的腿。



芭蕾舞的学费很贵,但是我可以打工赚学费。
打工?我真的能做到吗?

走着瞧吧= )

没想到小时候的leotard现在还能勉强穿上让我过过瘾啊~=P


YY
1.01am
5.12.2012