矛盾依然

眼泪就快要飙出来，若真如此，那不就证明我更小孩子气，是个19岁的小孩吗？

忍住眼泪，真的是长大了的表现？

不是吧，不是。

眼泪总是要落下，不可能一杯装汽水的杯子永远是满的。

但是条件是眼泪是绝对给自己的，或者是在值得信任的人的面前落下的。

要是在众人面前当下眼泪轻易掉下，那就太脆弱了。

脆弱也不等于小孩子啊？

但间接着联系到当下状况，人啊，就是要懂得做人的道理，所以如果违反了这道理，那就成为了小孩子气。

哈哈，小孩子气=小气

Yay~你被贴上新标签了，恭喜恭喜。

原来，我好怕她。

只要她一句尖锐的言语，我就整个傻住了，被影响了。

事实上，这种情绪很容易被传染，她又被我感染了。

本来是我在闹，结果我还得受气，难受得也是自己。

我有什么办法，只要被说，我就一定会思考那些话语，自然会被影响啊。

然后这些循环就会被重复，重复，一直重复。

原来，是我心软。 

原来，她硬起来我真的无法抵挡。

我退了好大一步，动也不敢动。

我不知道。

我好害怕，我不知该怎么做

没有人教我，我真的不会。

不是我依赖（是，在她眼里我还是个很依赖的人），但我真的不知道怎么去应对。

又过了一个假期

我还是没长大

好多话没说清楚    我们双方

结果我好听话  结果  我一事无成 没有地位  还是小孩子 

话说出来其实还是有好多矛盾

不说不如更好？

不，那样更不好

垃圾不倒  会生虫。

*泪哭干以后，我想跳下水游泳。

小小世界

1.03am

26/12/2012

Christmas

I m not Christian.
Christmas? YES!!
I just love Christmas feelings!
The songs, Santa Claus, Christmas trees, the Reindeer, the countdown, the party, present exchange~
All sounds so fun and exciting!
And people celebrate it!
Party and present exchange.



On Christmas's eve, I saw there was a blood donation campaign when I shopped at Jusco.
I wanted to donate my blood, that would be the lovely present for the people who need it in emergency, isn't it?
I did not make it anyway.
I was afraid maybe, there's not much people donate blood there...
And I am regretting now...


Christmas should be more of Giving than Gifting presents,I thought.
Say YAY to them who spent their Christmas day on giving out, to orphans or people who need helps.


and Merry Christmas Everyone!

Be Brave

I said I like dancing ballet, I wanna do it, to myself.
Then I started tell my friends, trustful one, then one by one...
I was afraid of being laugh, I will be a laughing stock, I feel embarrasing...

Then I talked about it to people around me, my friends,my mum, my aunt...
Not much people care about it actually, because this is not their dream, it's mine.
I wish someone could understand me feeling, the passion to do something, but it rarely happens.
It's a hard time when I talk to someone who is not supportive for me, the don't know what is the passion and they said the cons, only.
Of course, you can find someone who support you-good friends.
I really appreciate who support me and care about how is it, do I start learning yet? or bla..bla...bla...
I really happy that they show their cares.

There was an afternoon, I was sitting on my chair beside my bed and called again and again for the number of one dance academy at Makhota.
No one picks up the phone....
Called over and over...
Then after I gave up calling, a call from an unknown shown in my phone, I picked up with pretend to be calm heart.
It's the academy calling!
The people on the phone seems like understanding and the attitude is quite favourable.
The call gave me hope!
I knew it! I knew it!
I knew there's a way for this late beginner to learn this dance-Ballet!
Private class!
It's expensive, though.
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Because of transport and bla bla bla have to be considered, I still havent take a real action to chase after my dream yet.





Now, I brave up myself to ask my friend who is a ballerina about the fees of higher grade of ballet.
Because I wanna know the line of it, still have to consider cause imnotrich.
Andyouknowwhat! I actually always not dare to talk to her...and now I am asking her , in fb chat, though.
Claps for myself!

Yay! I gonna dance dance dance dance dance dance!



By the way, two events invitations come to me in one night. (I did not mean anything)
I feel damn happy! Because I always like gathering or party with friends! especially at the most important moment like Year End and Christmas! XDD
It's like sharing the 38 and happy moments with friends!

The most happiest event is to have a Christmas dinner with my BFFs, first time ever at OT!
It's going to happen tomorrow! I am so looking forward to it!

Hope all things go well.
Because, like Abigail, me too, hate changes, of things I already have a beautiful imagination of it.

Dream chaser

I got these photos from my aunt's phone, as I am now at her house, I just wanna post some photos that I took here...

During my sis's wedding buffet...

________________________________________________________________________

All the photos above just for me to easy save them on my computer. 

NOW

Here's the Important one!!!

TADAAA~~~~

Our pianist!

Cheah Li Anne!

气质美女 ; )

First Zhipai with her XD

(She doesn't like to take photos so... the first ever picture with her in zhipai mode)

The decoration there is awesome =D

Can't see clearly?

Here's the nearer one...

Spotlight!

Good show! 

(grab her for another photo after the end of the show XP)

When the performers were performing on the stage, it reminds me of my dream, dancing. 

It's just so similar to dance. First you go to sign up for the lessons, then you learnt and paid hard work to it.

When the times come, you are on the stage to show others your dream, how you have come over everything and now you achieve what you always dream for. 

The moment we called Dream comes true.

Then you go on and on to chase for your dream to a higher level.

But what we always need to keep in mind is passion, at least passion is consider important to me to achieve a dream.

Congratulation! Princess Anne! ; )

and Good Luck for your piano exam in the future.

Xoxo,

Dare to Dream

16.12.2012

女孩。女人

重逢之际，我在汽车后座看着两人的背面，顿然发觉，我们已好久不见。

在12.12.2012这天，我们的无意安排竟然是落在这天。

是不知这有什么特别，大家很爱强调这日子就是了，那我就跟跟风吧~

我们几乎很少一起照相了。
最后一次一起拍照，是多久以前的事呢？

这次HANG OUT，我们约好一起穿裙，还有高跟鞋。

安娜姑娘很怕冷，外套不够还手套，两条围巾，一条被我抢过来穿的袜子（不知是不是因为这样她收起来没有穿>.< ）

玻璃鞋的灰姑娘看见平底鞋就一直呱呱叫~

或许童话里也有不为人知的一面，其实灰姑娘不爱穿高跟鞋。

下次出门，一定要拍照留念=D

*距离19岁，倒数三个月。

Yean Yee

13.12.2012

许愿盒里的字条

我想不看，不听，不说
就穿上舞鞋，飘扬起舞，随着音乐陶醉在优雅的舞步~


我喜欢芭蕾。
那时我的梦想，小时候来不及坚持的梦想。

如今，我决定了重新追逐着可贵的梦想
但是，声音从不同的方向传来

“跳啦跳啦”
“脚还不够粗，还要跳？”
“跳芭蕾舞的很傻~”。。。不知名声音，言者才是傻子！
“学费那么贵，不如去学英文”

这些声音，我都有听进去。

除了芭蕾，我还发现现代舞，也是一种延续芭蕾的舞蹈，自由活动性较大，不太过于注重在脚~
如果可以，我想两个都学，但是一步一步来。


说实话，在我想要计划学芭蕾时，我完全没有想到腿会粗的事。
好吧！就算腿会粗，也没关系。
至少我的人生，有梦想有热爱做的事，而不是有一双明明热爱舞蹈却只有用不到的肌肉的腿。



芭蕾舞的学费很贵，但是我可以打工赚学费。
打工？我真的能做到吗？

走着瞧吧= )

没想到小时候的leotard现在还能勉强穿上让我过过瘾啊~=P

YY

1.01am

5.12.2012

湿被子

为何妥协？

为何总得在你面前低头？

此刻就算在房间里，也听不到平时你大喊着我的名字，把我当成什么了似的点东点西。

那种感觉，我非常讨厌。连着波来的时对你的憎恨。

每次我都记得你说的那些话，还有语气，然后在你犯错时，以其人之道还治其人之身，然后我脸上一脸得意。

那很爽快，但是却满足不了我，暂时还没想到有什么办法可以对付。

你总爱说我这个不帮忙，那个不帮忙，那在我帮忙的时候你说了什么？

就算你说了什么，我也不需要。我只要做我想做的，当我没mood做时，你的一大堆烦人的话也只是吹进脑里的耳边风。

你还很讨厌我问的“废话”。

如果这世界上都不需要这些话，天下大乱了耶！哪来的那么多common sense？我就是喜欢打破砂锅问到底！就算那个东西看起来像砂锅，我也是要问：那是什么东西？

拜托，世界何其大，每个人的观念都不一样，有些人比较艺术，对他而言，砂锅不是砂锅。

或许我就是那种人。

部落格里的草稿，打了几行字，又被删掉了

在我心里深深明白，想法总是和事实自相矛盾

我毕竟也是个感性的人，要我把感觉忽略了，拜托，也得总有个理由吧

心在和脑打口水仗时，我顿时觉悟了

我得学会和自己的内心对话，而不是老是用耳朵听来别人的言语来和自己骂架

经常备受精神上的折磨不就是因为不懂得与自己的内心对话吗？

为什么我满心期待，一整天都在想要以什么姿态去见老朋友，却偏偏要我妥协留下来照顾那得了手足口正的女孩？

身为母亲难道不能为了女儿而请假无微不至的照顾自己的女儿，陪她度过这关吗？

为什么世界就是那么不公平，当你想要的时候你都能得到，因为你计划你聪明你勤力，

而我要的时候却偏偏出了差错？也许是因为我缺了运气，时机不对。

哈哈。什么烂东西~就算我主动妥协，也心不甘，情不愿，因为没人感谢！

这都被认为是应该的，哪来的那么多感谢~

紧握拳头，不如松松手指头。

*喂！朋友！别因为自己有了一对朋友就顾着自己去玩，把我丢了。

我在伤心着呢...

 Wet! Yean Yee.

12.41 a.m.

27.11.2012

人生几何

时间划过，地球在转动，人事物也在变化

我习惯待在自己的安稳地带
眼看别人改变了：好的，心里难免会露出一丝羡慕，恶性的羡慕；坏的，会体验到同理心。

小姐脾气，那好臭好臭的脾气，还是改不了
呆在家里，一星期几乎每天都会因为家务事发个一次吧
——我真的很讨厌被吩咐做家事。

别忘了，我是水瓶女孩。

就是很讨厌被吩咐的感觉。
有点像是叛逆的心理，你越是要我做，我越是不做
嘴子硬，里子软。到最后还不是得乖乖就范...

大概这就是为何我长不大的原因吧。



没有人会真的在意你，就你自己才是真心在乎自己。
每个人都有自己的生活，哪管得了你那么多？
曾经我把好朋友当作男朋友般看待（不是蕾丝边的意思），就是我们之间没有任何事是被隐瞒的，我懂你的，你也知道我的。
但其实这不过是我一向情愿，把别人当作全世界，而你在别人眼里只是个聊得来的乘客。

当然，每个人心里都有秘密，不可能把任何事都告诉你
但其实我也只不过想知道你的生活而已
那...是秘密吗？
我以为我们是最要好的朋友。

或许，姐妹的境界才如此吧，在我看来。

曾经沧桑难为水，除却巫山不是云。
我好怀念中二那次到国家公园露营的经历啊~

旅途中，我凝视着窗外，思考着当初我写下的TO DO LIST完成了多少
思考着我们之间的关系，真的可能像那句话，“真正的好朋友就算是很久没见面了，也不会尴尬”？

我把这句话当成了你视界里的规则，仿佛预告着我将被忽略，然后我们也还是会像以前一
样。


我野蛮，我任性，我讨厌这样——被忽略。
就像男友不该把女友忽略了一样。

有人说，失去一个好朋友比失恋还要难受。
虽然失恋里我好遥远，我却能深深感受到前者的情况有多么难理~


缘分会尽？
还是一切决定在人的想法？


换个角度想，没有事情是不可能的。


时间过得真快，我快19了。
缘分什么时候到来？
多希望那位像李大仁那样，我不开心时能和我聊一聊，能容忍我的野蛮任性。
我会耐心等待，他的到来。

总把事情想像得太夸张，会疲累了自己啊。
那也只是想想。
没遇过实际情况，谁也不知道会发生什么事？




我期盼的，你拥有了
我能以什么样的心情，去把这些看开？
心已超载了。

全世界都在变，唯独我没变。
嗯。。。落后了。




*写完这篇，放了出来，我又要后悔了。。。

Feeling is killing.
No longer midnight, Morning =)

24.11.2012

Sis's Wedding

I always wanted update my blog but...watching drama keeps distracting my mood to write a post~ I just can't kill two birds with one stone. And I was lazy to update, too. *weeeee



Last week I was busy with my sis's wedding. Well, why I was busy? It's not my wedding. Hehe! I went her house to help clean up her room and also decorate it. Not helping much but did help :) Erm...I planned to on diet so that I will look beautiful on dress but I failed to do it...FAILER! Anyway, I still wore those dress and do not care how fat I can be.

Here's the pictures!

Outfit of the night Before 18.11.2012

Secret on the back!

Outfit for wedding dinner !

I forgot to take the picture for the day because I was tired and hungry after the traditional wedding process >.< Bridesmaid is me. It's fun:) and I am honoured to be her bridesmaid. I helped sis holding her pinky long gown during the dinner when they went around "yum seng" with every guests ! Louis (Sheng Sheng) was dancing when I fed him ate meatball when the dinner started! He moved his body like he enjoyed the music very very very very much! Really!

I went crazy when wearing the contact lenses. I don't know how much time I used to wear them but I was frustrated after trying umpteenth times that fail to wear it! Urghhhhhh~~~~

Happiness =D

Congratz! XDD

Wish you guys happy always: )

Short updates! I am addicted to the drama! Ciaooo~~

Yean Yee

19.11.2012

Judge a book by its Cover, Never.

Well, I must say, at the very first of this semester, I am feeling that my classmates are more to academic students who work so hard to do homework and more maths.t exercises. As time pass, I can now actually see that, it's not what you can see with your eyes. Although they prefer to spend their recess on the class, eating the meals they bring to school, but it actually doesn't mean anything, which we could so suprise what's going on with this people, isn't that they should go out for a while during recess to gap for fresh air? Now, I am proud to say, THAT'S OUR CLASS STYLE! Dont ever tell me that your class do not have a single people who prefer to stay in the class during recess. It's just their life style, you don't have the right to interrupt,* but as a friend, you should know what to do ya.

I admit, maybe the first of this semester, we weren't talking to each other, but it's because we are all from different class and schools. We do not know much about each other and you know, sometimes people would like to stay on their comfort zone rather than talking to others as some just not so social, like me. I do start the friendships and I don't know how to maintain it. I would if you are on my best friends.(Terms and conditions apply. ;P) Because I m just not so the social type and,trust me, I dont know how to have a conversation with people.

We do chit-chat and we have joy in our class.We sing along when someone's birthday but not as merry as other because....i dont know, we are too shy to sing out loud. And friends share their study techniques to each other and plan which day to absent!! And they are so smart that you can ask them on study when you dont understand and they are willing to explain and tell you. Such so great! For me, they are my little teachers and my friends =)


13 days to go! I am so happy and grateful when I finished one chapter of Maths T with the help of my classmate.

And...I was so hyper(i mean excited) when Sheng Sheng , my nephew, was on the phone said Yes! he wants to sleep overnight here with me tonight !!!! His sound was just like a girl which was very high pitch! o f course he wasn't tell the full sentence and it's quite unclear of what I heard. Come to me BABY! You are my sweetheart >v<

GAMBATEH! Tomorrow , I will absent and go to Midvalley with mum and aunts to buy heels for occasion of  my sister's wedding which held on 18 Nov this year.

Ciao!

When I was missing you and thinking why we are not talking any more, you poked me =)

23.10.2012

0

阅读零极限，虽是懂非懂，却还是让我获益不浅

实话说，我还是学不会沟通，一个眼神或一个我不喜欢听到的回应就能让整个对话崩溃。
很糟吧。我懂。却不会。




清理 清理 清理。。。
净化内在
一切念头，情绪
清理 清理 清理。。。

乔说的没错，就好像赌瘾一样
那种想法，那种情绪，在记忆里
就好像瘾一样，在我内在里转啊转啊转。。。
我好讨厌这种感觉。。。
那反叛的心理，想纠正别人的心理，又来了
好讨厌，我要清理。

在愤怒来临前的一刻，我想起了以前我所抱住的“信念”或可称为“想法”——没有你，我一样过得很好
是多么大的错误。
对不起，请原谅我。

HOOPONOPONO提供了让人净化内在，和转化一切成为更好的方法
我想问为什么没有记载怎么处理人与人之间的沟通呢？



对不起
请原谅我
谢谢你
我爱你


爱，的力量。
拯救我。

谢谢。谢谢。

旆倪
感恩，天

Ho'oponopono

考完试后我放松了三天！

星期五咱们PRS带小瓜们儿到KLCC Petroscience 一日游！
发育中的孩子真的不容易理解，也不怎么会跟他们沟通，有些实在是爱顶嘴得不得了，我只能闭上嘴巴  吞声忍气。
庆幸少数的瓜儿还不错“听话”啊~这些都是在班上大多数时间都被排挤的...唉，孩子啊~
每次只要去到这些好玩又新奇的地方我就兴奋得不得了，马上转身便成小孩一个！

久违了，泳池！
一下水做呼吸时看见清澈的蓝水，灯光照入水里，我仿佛进入了另外一个世界
就好像自己变成了水娃儿，在水里畅游，那里是我家。

游泳是很累，却让人喘得很爽的一种运动！

或许运动后的喘气是种难以言喻的爽吧！



谢谢你，我爱你，我自己。

对不起，请原谅我，对自己说。


“对不起，我爱你，谢谢你，请原谅我”

我的水罐上贴着的贴子，写着以上四组词
记得几年前阿姨给我这贴子时，只记得她说要常说这四句话（对别人吧？我记不清了）

直到 现在我才发觉这四句话的来源——零极限

一本关于Ho'oponopono，一种夏威夷疗法的心灵书本。

说实话，以我的修行  我还不太清楚书本里写的，该怎么用这四句话，所以也不知该怎么介绍如何用这四句话。

只知道，对不起，请原谅我，谢谢你，我爱你，是对自己内在说的。=)

请待续...

晚安！

旆倪
1.05a.m.
8.10.2012

Nervousness

考试就在下个转角  我被逼到墙角


谁？谁？谁？


是谁在逼我？


对，就是那个，我。



一切的责怪都无济于事   却是放不过自己

连续两夜    含泪入睡


频临精神崩溃


好想找个人诉苦
却意外发现...好像身边一没有一个这样能给我安慰的人

算我要求高，想找个不用我说，一个也知道眼神便了解我想要的那种安慰方式


“Without saying a word, you can light up the dark”

(When you say nothing at all painting by Rodriguez,copied from fineartamerica.com)



“我什么都还没准备
大后天就考试了”
这种想法只会让我陷入陷阱。
对，我的确踩了进去。好深。


一切发生的事，都是注定唯一那样发生的。
如果？没有如果。

有时会在偷偷地想，所选择的是否适合，正确。
毕竟我不是那方面天才。
但，我还是拒绝了那样的想法。
坚持下去。


力克说：坚持下去就会有结果。

尽管这次考试，我预知成绩将难以接受，不堪入眼，
但还是脚踏实地，走到哪就到哪吧！

中秋快乐=D

YY.
30.09.2012

Amazed Power

When I was doing MT Courseworl, I was wondering...

What is life? 

How would my life be?

Who am I in the future? 

Will be I a teacher? 

or just a promoter works at supermarket? 

or a waiter in a cafe? (wow, sounds fun! )

or just a whatever?

And I was awaken. I know what I want, though I dont have an exact answer.

I want my life be meaningful. I dont want be a promoter at the supermarket for my whole life.

I must admit ,promoter is a good job. Many people and experiences can be learn during work. My bro said that.

Therefore, I know it. I must study hard, in order not to be a failure, like I am now.

The following two weeks are going to be as busy as a bee! Tension Exam week!

So as the following months...November is the STPM real exam. so have to work really hard to get Superb results to prove I CAN!!! And I am not a lazy bud anymore! :-D

Gotta go! Ciao~

Xoxo,

Y.Y

23.9.2012

心。孔。空

人往往赶不上的就是改变
变化让我无法适应，每天都好孤独

没有交心的对话，生活变得不那么完整

空虚，寂寞，在踏入校园那刻便侵蚀着心灵

没有了精神支柱，没有了灵魂，什么样的生活都不会带来甜的滋味

或许甜，其实也不过过眼云烟，并不是真实的

别把甜甜的收藏地密密在心里，只有有意地回忆起（冥想），才能让它给你增加正面能量，带出它背后正真的意义

生活再灿烂，也要有人分享才显得可贵

没有了，没有了啦

一个人，一个人了...

就像起航的木舟离灯塔，渐行渐远...

旆倪
21.09.2012

裸

生命密码里所说的   用灵魂生活，到底隐藏着什么意思？

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失败，作为女儿。

失败，当个学生。

失败，做人这门课。

失败，生活这门课。

18岁，原来不是想象中那么好。

18了，我还像个小孩，走路都不会。

18了，别人都驾车了，我不会。

18了，该认真了，我依然得过且过。

她的话是多么的真，像把剑，一刺便中了红心。

是啊，他们大家都顶不顺我...

我不知道该怎么做？面对小孩，该怎么说话？面对大人，该说什么？驾车被骂，我只会冷冷地“哦”，但错误却依然重复...

承认，我失败，不敢面对，

就连打篇部落格，都...挣扎不已。

因自相矛盾的产生...是知道答案，却装作不知，被别人指点，又不肯面对...

每次的挫败感，为何都没有反省过来？

为什么...越陷越深？

嗯，我是个问题孩子，哦不，问题人物。

问题我知，大家心知。当被说出来（批评）时，我接受不来。

失去了，失去了，我失去了所有，所有你看不见的。

逃吧！我好想逃开！

这就是我糟糕的生活。

糟糕？或许也没那么糟糕吧？

当你因为没有鞋穿而哭泣时，应该意识到别人没有脚。

以上这句话，在我阅读看来时，觉得很可笑。

但当在真实情况时，它教会你的不止感恩，还有坚强生活下去。

晚安~:*

Yean.

Mmm....Yummy!

It's boring while downloading my favourite drama, so I decide to blog about today. A hang out with aunts and cousins, something we haven't done for a long time. We have done some window shopping and had brunch and an early dinner there. Madam Kwan's was our purpose to go MidValley. Its foods were satisfying but service of the day was Bad, due to holidays and the management of waiter and waitress were a mess. Our dessert-Banana fritters with ice cream never come, and finally cancelled it, bill and went away.

Then, Zanmai Sushi was our early dinner target. Bin has a "bottomless" stomach. We keep laughing him. He was like this "Oh, I m enough, I m full..." and then when the dish was served, we discussed and try out it and he took his chopstick and put a piece into his mouth, and we LAUGHED! Hahahahaha! The salmon there were NICE, it's thick and fresh. It was like melting as I put into my mouth, well...I m joking :P.

We, the children, eat all the way, Expensive French fries-Crazy potatoes, Gong Cha, finally Moo cow-yogurt ice cream!!! The price is reasonable and it's nice and healthy!

Today- I had a great time with my families!

Ciao~(done downloading...)

Xoxo, 

Yean Yee

20.08.2012

Holidays, trip with Adults

I always admire somebody has a gang of friends, mix of boys and girls, and they do hang out with their friends, do take a lot of photos, nice memories bring along, and THAT IS DAMN GOOD FEEL ! I guess I never experience it before...sad case...


BUT there were some experience that I enjoyed it very much! Though it was not with someone I close with, some strangers, like friend's friends or cousin's friend....Sometimes I mingled with them but there were times I walked alone and enjoy the scenery along the journey myself. Guess I am the kind of person enjoy alone much more than a big gang, in some conditions. They are funny, people of kind that I was not familiar with, and I was suprised to observe some sides of people that they don't look from the outside.

  The 1st gang, is my cousin's friends. They do not talked politely, they spoke rude, but they are them. They are someone that I respected as they are older than me, and they knew more things about the social than me, of course. Their friendships make me admire. They chat,in naturally way, and "zat" each other rudely and it just feel so comfortably to be with them. They talk jokes and they are open minded. Adults are always more "open minded" compare to me, the 18 years old girl which is still look like a child and also think and act like a child. I laughed a lot while listen to their conversations. I love laughing and laugh easily. And laugh because it was funny, and never think about the condition if it is in my shoe. So I was thinking I will be laugh back next time, any time.

 

( Taman Pertanian Malaysia, Shah Alam. 16.08.2012 )


 We should be appreciated to have what we had. I am greedy. I want more than that, well...I was happy to have such experiences. Though my ideal "hang out" is not accomplish, but in the future, it will. My friend always think that this kind of thinking is not neccessary, but I just can't stop myself from thinking and looking for it. I want it that way, but not by forcing it, but to experience it. Yuan Fen will bring it to me, I just need to wait for the day to come =)

The 2nd , I totally enjoyed the trip, both trips I did enjoy so much, but the 2nd I feel more to myself. I acted the way who I am, because my friends were there and I just show myself. This gang is kinder than the previous, as they talked to me and told stories of them. The gang with my sister was more to, I joined them, I was the "side person", though they did not excluded and ignore me at all, but they chat among themselves that I have no right to chip in. This was the first time I went to Broga Hills and it was more tougher trip than I expected. I love to climb to the peak and stand on the big stone and see the scenery of the town and touch the SKY ,feel the BREEZY and sip the FRESH AIR!

( Broga Hills, 400m at Seremban/ Semenyih(?). 19.08.2012 )


Both trips with different people were eye opener to me! Though I didn't make friends with them, but I got some experiences and I am sure next time I ll perform better. I used the word "perform " because, I take it as lesson, and I am learning something from them, from the trips.\


The negatives always be negative but there are also POSITIVES there.

Happy Holidays! =DDD

Xoxo, 

Yean Yee

谁是谁？

人就是那么奇怪，那么犯贱。
明明知道不该做的事，不应该像的那么偏激负面，却还是被头脑控制着，带着走，走向深渊。

跑吧！
跑步是件非常开心的事，让跑步训练自己的体力，毅力和耐力。
好高兴，我踏出第一步了！
我的愿望是可以明年可以参加马拉松赛。
那些选手在比赛过程会经历饥渴和身体非常疲惫，但他们会抵达终点，就算再累再渴，他们也会坚持到达终点。
这一点也够我学习的了，还有知易难行，然而我深信跑马拉松赛很有意义，不管 对身体或心灵。每一场跑马拉松，就好像走过一趟旅途，欣赏沿途风光也好，思路突然开窍也好，都回事难得的经验，并不是旁观者所能体会的。

今天经过六楼楼梯，看见壁挂着的静思语，恍然大悟自己变得好难相处的原因。
心宽。
到底要修炼多久？怎样修炼？才能有那种程度？
心宽一寸，受益三分。

虽然人际关系不好，虽然功课未完成，但我每天的活得很自己，而不是盲目生活，我看见自己，我感到自己的存在，我感到自己在学习。

一首歌代表的不仅仅是歌词里的意思，更是能唤醒一段时期的回忆。初中操步时大家一起哼的歌曲，我和朋友们的点滴。代表性也是其中之一的记忆唤醒剂。就好像想到Taylor swift 就会想到何钇宣，五月天就想到谢丽妍。
有好的，有坏的，凡是都有两面嘛，
但我很庆幸，某些歌带给我的美好回忆。这比不堪回首的回忆更值得...收藏。


加油啦！=D

30.7.2012

Oh yea...

Obviously, there's been a long time I did not updated. Well, it is because my house's internet access has been cut. Form 6 life is quite busy. All the way input input. Loads of space have to be occupied with Bio, Chem, MT....... A lot of homework are given, especially Mathematics T! I actually dislike Maths all the way. Though, my teacher said we HAVE TO love Maths and be FRIEND of her and ACCOMPANY maths (doing maths exercises) every day! You should feel guilty for not doing Maths for one day, means we should do Maths every day like we take the responsibility to stick with Maths. Urgh.... I can't do it, for now. I was so lazy. And now I am regretting and so sorry for myself in the future. To prevent the conditions become worse, I probably should start act up and make use whole free time to do what I should do. Monthly exam is just around the corner!!! OMG T.T I feel scare. I must be the last and poorest student in my class if i keep on in lazy mode.

The step by step I am going to change my life style :
1) A TIME TABLE should be arranged
2) Done all the homework
3) Start revisions
4) Read through the topics before the lessons


By the way, I am going to tell that I am quite actively in co-curriculum. I am the Vice President of Interact Club. I was SO shocked when I knew this. I am Senior PRS. I am swimming club's member and SMS's treasurer, Taichi club's representative of Form 6 and vice treasurer of Seed Reading Club. I am not sure I was doing it all fine. As now I am not balancing between co-cu and my study.

Erm..... BUCK UP!!!

Xoxo,

Yean Yee

20.07.2012