Judge a book by its Cover, Never.

Well, I must say, at the very first of this semester, I am feeling that my classmates are more to academic students who work so hard to do homework and more maths.t exercises. As time pass, I can now actually see that, it's not what you can see with your eyes. Although they prefer to spend their recess on the class, eating the meals they bring to school, but it actually doesn't mean anything, which we could so suprise what's going on with this people, isn't that they should go out for a while during recess to gap for fresh air? Now, I am proud to say, THAT'S OUR CLASS STYLE! Dont ever tell me that your class do not have a single people who prefer to stay in the class during recess. It's just their life style, you don't have the right to interrupt,* but as a friend, you should know what to do ya.

I admit, maybe the first of this semester, we weren't talking to each other, but it's because we are all from different class and schools. We do not know much about each other and you know, sometimes people would like to stay on their comfort zone rather than talking to others as some just not so social, like me. I do start the friendships and I don't know how to maintain it. I would if you are on my best friends.(Terms and conditions apply. ;P) Because I m just not so the social type and,trust me, I dont know how to have a conversation with people.

We do chit-chat and we have joy in our class.We sing along when someone's birthday but not as merry as other because....i dont know, we are too shy to sing out loud. And friends share their study techniques to each other and plan which day to absent!! And they are so smart that you can ask them on study when you dont understand and they are willing to explain and tell you. Such so great! For me, they are my little teachers and my friends =)


13 days to go! I am so happy and grateful when I finished one chapter of Maths T with the help of my classmate.

And...I was so hyper(i mean excited) when Sheng Sheng , my nephew, was on the phone said Yes! he wants to sleep overnight here with me tonight !!!! His sound was just like a girl which was very high pitch! o f course he wasn't tell the full sentence and it's quite unclear of what I heard. Come to me BABY! You are my sweetheart >v<

GAMBATEH! Tomorrow , I will absent and go to Midvalley with mum and aunts to buy heels for occasion of  my sister's wedding which held on 18 Nov this year.

Ciao!

When I was missing you and thinking why we are not talking any more, you poked me =)

23.10.2012

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阅读零极限，虽是懂非懂，却还是让我获益不浅

实话说，我还是学不会沟通，一个眼神或一个我不喜欢听到的回应就能让整个对话崩溃。
很糟吧。我懂。却不会。




清理 清理 清理。。。
净化内在
一切念头，情绪
清理 清理 清理。。。

乔说的没错，就好像赌瘾一样
那种想法，那种情绪，在记忆里
就好像瘾一样，在我内在里转啊转啊转。。。
我好讨厌这种感觉。。。
那反叛的心理，想纠正别人的心理，又来了
好讨厌，我要清理。

在愤怒来临前的一刻，我想起了以前我所抱住的“信念”或可称为“想法”——没有你，我一样过得很好
是多么大的错误。
对不起，请原谅我。

HOOPONOPONO提供了让人净化内在，和转化一切成为更好的方法
我想问为什么没有记载怎么处理人与人之间的沟通呢？



对不起
请原谅我
谢谢你
我爱你


爱，的力量。
拯救我。

谢谢。谢谢。

旆倪
感恩，天

Ho'oponopono

考完试后我放松了三天！

星期五咱们PRS带小瓜们儿到KLCC Petroscience 一日游！
发育中的孩子真的不容易理解，也不怎么会跟他们沟通，有些实在是爱顶嘴得不得了，我只能闭上嘴巴  吞声忍气。
庆幸少数的瓜儿还不错“听话”啊~这些都是在班上大多数时间都被排挤的...唉，孩子啊~
每次只要去到这些好玩又新奇的地方我就兴奋得不得了，马上转身便成小孩一个！

久违了，泳池！
一下水做呼吸时看见清澈的蓝水，灯光照入水里，我仿佛进入了另外一个世界
就好像自己变成了水娃儿，在水里畅游，那里是我家。

游泳是很累，却让人喘得很爽的一种运动！

或许运动后的喘气是种难以言喻的爽吧！



谢谢你，我爱你，我自己。

对不起，请原谅我，对自己说。


“对不起，我爱你，谢谢你，请原谅我”

我的水罐上贴着的贴子，写着以上四组词
记得几年前阿姨给我这贴子时，只记得她说要常说这四句话（对别人吧？我记不清了）

直到 现在我才发觉这四句话的来源——零极限

一本关于Ho'oponopono，一种夏威夷疗法的心灵书本。

说实话，以我的修行  我还不太清楚书本里写的，该怎么用这四句话，所以也不知该怎么介绍如何用这四句话。

只知道，对不起，请原谅我，谢谢你，我爱你，是对自己内在说的。=)

请待续...

晚安！

旆倪
1.05a.m.
8.10.2012

Nervousness

考试就在下个转角  我被逼到墙角


谁？谁？谁？


是谁在逼我？


对，就是那个，我。



一切的责怪都无济于事   却是放不过自己

连续两夜    含泪入睡


频临精神崩溃


好想找个人诉苦
却意外发现...好像身边一没有一个这样能给我安慰的人

算我要求高，想找个不用我说，一个也知道眼神便了解我想要的那种安慰方式


“Without saying a word, you can light up the dark”

(When you say nothing at all painting by Rodriguez,copied from fineartamerica.com)



“我什么都还没准备
大后天就考试了”
这种想法只会让我陷入陷阱。
对，我的确踩了进去。好深。


一切发生的事，都是注定唯一那样发生的。
如果？没有如果。

有时会在偷偷地想，所选择的是否适合，正确。
毕竟我不是那方面天才。
但，我还是拒绝了那样的想法。
坚持下去。


力克说：坚持下去就会有结果。

尽管这次考试，我预知成绩将难以接受，不堪入眼，
但还是脚踏实地，走到哪就到哪吧！

中秋快乐=D

YY.
30.09.2012

Amazed Power

When I was doing MT Courseworl, I was wondering...

What is life? 

How would my life be?

Who am I in the future? 

Will be I a teacher? 

or just a promoter works at supermarket? 

or a waiter in a cafe? (wow, sounds fun! )

or just a whatever?

And I was awaken. I know what I want, though I dont have an exact answer.

I want my life be meaningful. I dont want be a promoter at the supermarket for my whole life.

I must admit ,promoter is a good job. Many people and experiences can be learn during work. My bro said that.

Therefore, I know it. I must study hard, in order not to be a failure, like I am now.

The following two weeks are going to be as busy as a bee! Tension Exam week!

So as the following months...November is the STPM real exam. so have to work really hard to get Superb results to prove I CAN!!! And I am not a lazy bud anymore! :-D

Gotta go! Ciao~

Xoxo,

Y.Y

23.9.2012

心。孔。空

人往往赶不上的就是改变
变化让我无法适应，每天都好孤独

没有交心的对话，生活变得不那么完整

空虚，寂寞，在踏入校园那刻便侵蚀着心灵

没有了精神支柱，没有了灵魂，什么样的生活都不会带来甜的滋味

或许甜，其实也不过过眼云烟，并不是真实的

别把甜甜的收藏地密密在心里，只有有意地回忆起（冥想），才能让它给你增加正面能量，带出它背后正真的意义

生活再灿烂，也要有人分享才显得可贵

没有了，没有了啦

一个人，一个人了...

就像起航的木舟离灯塔，渐行渐远...

旆倪
21.09.2012

裸

生命密码里所说的   用灵魂生活，到底隐藏着什么意思？

————————————————————————————————

失败，作为女儿。

失败，当个学生。

失败，做人这门课。

失败，生活这门课。

18岁，原来不是想象中那么好。

18了，我还像个小孩，走路都不会。

18了，别人都驾车了，我不会。

18了，该认真了，我依然得过且过。

她的话是多么的真，像把剑，一刺便中了红心。

是啊，他们大家都顶不顺我...

我不知道该怎么做？面对小孩，该怎么说话？面对大人，该说什么？驾车被骂，我只会冷冷地“哦”，但错误却依然重复...

承认，我失败，不敢面对，

就连打篇部落格，都...挣扎不已。

因自相矛盾的产生...是知道答案，却装作不知，被别人指点，又不肯面对...

每次的挫败感，为何都没有反省过来？

为什么...越陷越深？

嗯，我是个问题孩子，哦不，问题人物。

问题我知，大家心知。当被说出来（批评）时，我接受不来。

失去了，失去了，我失去了所有，所有你看不见的。

逃吧！我好想逃开！

这就是我糟糕的生活。

糟糕？或许也没那么糟糕吧？

当你因为没有鞋穿而哭泣时，应该意识到别人没有脚。

以上这句话，在我阅读看来时，觉得很可笑。

但当在真实情况时，它教会你的不止感恩，还有坚强生活下去。

晚安~:*

Yean.