谁是谁？

人就是那么奇怪，那么犯贱。
明明知道不该做的事，不应该像的那么偏激负面，却还是被头脑控制着，带着走，走向深渊。

跑吧！
跑步是件非常开心的事，让跑步训练自己的体力，毅力和耐力。
好高兴，我踏出第一步了！
我的愿望是可以明年可以参加马拉松赛。
那些选手在比赛过程会经历饥渴和身体非常疲惫，但他们会抵达终点，就算再累再渴，他们也会坚持到达终点。
这一点也够我学习的了，还有知易难行，然而我深信跑马拉松赛很有意义，不管 对身体或心灵。每一场跑马拉松，就好像走过一趟旅途，欣赏沿途风光也好，思路突然开窍也好，都回事难得的经验，并不是旁观者所能体会的。

今天经过六楼楼梯，看见壁挂着的静思语，恍然大悟自己变得好难相处的原因。
心宽。
到底要修炼多久？怎样修炼？才能有那种程度？
心宽一寸，受益三分。

虽然人际关系不好，虽然功课未完成，但我每天的活得很自己，而不是盲目生活，我看见自己，我感到自己的存在，我感到自己在学习。

一首歌代表的不仅仅是歌词里的意思，更是能唤醒一段时期的回忆。初中操步时大家一起哼的歌曲，我和朋友们的点滴。代表性也是其中之一的记忆唤醒剂。就好像想到Taylor swift 就会想到何钇宣，五月天就想到谢丽妍。
有好的，有坏的，凡是都有两面嘛，
但我很庆幸，某些歌带给我的美好回忆。这比不堪回首的回忆更值得...收藏。


加油啦！=D

30.7.2012

Oh yea...

Obviously, there's been a long time I did not updated. Well, it is because my house's internet access has been cut. Form 6 life is quite busy. All the way input input. Loads of space have to be occupied with Bio, Chem, MT....... A lot of homework are given, especially Mathematics T! I actually dislike Maths all the way. Though, my teacher said we HAVE TO love Maths and be FRIEND of her and ACCOMPANY maths (doing maths exercises) every day! You should feel guilty for not doing Maths for one day, means we should do Maths every day like we take the responsibility to stick with Maths. Urgh.... I can't do it, for now. I was so lazy. And now I am regretting and so sorry for myself in the future. To prevent the conditions become worse, I probably should start act up and make use whole free time to do what I should do. Monthly exam is just around the corner!!! OMG T.T I feel scare. I must be the last and poorest student in my class if i keep on in lazy mode.

The step by step I am going to change my life style :
1) A TIME TABLE should be arranged
2) Done all the homework
3) Start revisions
4) Read through the topics before the lessons


By the way, I am going to tell that I am quite actively in co-curriculum. I am the Vice President of Interact Club. I was SO shocked when I knew this. I am Senior PRS. I am swimming club's member and SMS's treasurer, Taichi club's representative of Form 6 and vice treasurer of Seed Reading Club. I am not sure I was doing it all fine. As now I am not balancing between co-cu and my study.

Erm..... BUCK UP!!!

Xoxo,

Yean Yee

20.07.2012

书虫保安

   当我正式得知我被录取当工读生在书展工作时，心里是蛮平淡的，好像预知了我早会被录取。但两位好友和其他一起去面试的朋友却没有，实不相瞒心里觉得自己很幸运。

   星期五放学后，托灰姑娘的福我才得以轻松赶到书展。第一天工作,第一次工作，我好怕自己不能应付，顾客一问我三不知，还好这天人不多，适应这份工好需要稍稍时间。我的工作就只是站岗，若有顾客需要就帮忙解惑书本的价钱或某类型的书籍放哪儿或帮忙找书。这份工，对没工作经验的我来说，很容易，却又很难。站岗嘛，这么容易，但怎么做得尽职不被高层骂就是挑战。

     显然我的心理实际上还没被调整。基于前五天除了周末我都是觉得“好闷哪”，“站得脚好痛”来抱怨或寻找熟人来打发时间却找不到而闲掉，而不是抱有“工作”,“尽职”的心理去站岗长达12小时， 终于在第五天晚上人不多时，我离开岗位与同事聊天好一会儿被说了...当下觉得好羞愧好尴尬，都不敢抬头看其他同事。谁喜欢被骂啊？觉得好伤心......吸收了昨晚的教训，于是隔天我都乖乖地站岗，尽职并投入这份工作，少抱怨“站得腰很酸”了。 这样工作，确实让我很开心，做该做的事。但是在我帮一位小妹妹抱起她不到一岁的妹妹时，一位长期员工看了过来，我不确定那是不是工作时不可以帮顾客做的事，也不确定那是不是瞪着的眼神，但那个眼神，让我好不舒服，又做错了吗？   唉，终于知道大人工作的难处了啊~


每位工读生都能休假一天，这天我休假，却想利用假期去逛书展，呵呵，可能是觉得太不公平了，工作在书展没得逛书展，所以想宠宠自己。

工作回到家再累，也会想边看电视剧边吃宵夜或零食的心情，哈哈，释放压力？假装忙碌充实？好不享受啊！直到看得快睡着了才爬上床，容易入睡嘛。


今天轮到我享受逛书展的悠闲啦！哈哈哈哈！


10.32a.m.
31.05.2012

Eraser

中六，我的选择。中六，老师说是一种选择，没有好或不好。
新制度的第一批，荣幸？哈！还不错吧～感觉接下来日子会很忙碌。
开学，但还没开课，所以日子依然轻松，就像暴风雨前的风平浪静。

如果上帝给我一份礼物，我想要一个橡皮檫，檫掉不开心和不应该介意的事。

还是那句——世事无绝对，一个人没有必要因为失去了另一些事物或一个人而觉得伤心，我们应该爱自己疼自己，关心自己快不快乐，开心也一天，不开心也一天，过得开心的条件其实很简单，但悲观的人们就是被恶性循环的负面思维给缠住了，然后闷闷不乐，一天过去了，接下来日子就一天一天这样过去...改变是所有人都拥有的一个机会，无论如何。所以，我们可以选择乐观。Take Baby steps to change. Take Times.

日常作息还在调整中,
加油！=)


旆倪
11.30pm
16.05.2012

Fishie

Yea. I m so excited to attend SWIMMING CLASS every Sunday! One hour just don't seem like enough for me /.\ I feel like go swimming every day!! Slim my body, to get away the big tummy and exercise make people feel fresh! I need it so much! I dont know why I love swimming so much since this year~I just love it! and there's another advantage, you would no necessary find a partner to do this exercise! Oh yeah! But accompany/accompanies will be great too : )

 

I was like a Nanny now. At first, Louis Baby got HFMD. So, I have to take him out from my house, went to his house, take care of him individually. Can you imagine a sick baby that is so playful? THAT is children...Sing and Dance and watch him learned the dance with only hands like I did, Act like a clown, Jump like an elephant to make him laugh HAHA! Its FUN and also exhaust. Nvm, as an exercise. but I need more rest and sleep for that-.-  Now,another baby also affected by HFMD (Hand Feet Mouth Disease/Virus). It's a common illness of infants. Don' worry and they will be very "naughty" and suffering these days as they don't know how to talk, they just keep 'cry'. Sometimes they are not crying, they have crocodile tears. shout like crying. No ways to stop them at last they need your LOVE too. *HUGHUG And when they are crying, means they need HUG. and HUGGING a baby for more than ten minutes is definitely tired for everyone...even guys, cause they have no patient to coax the babies! 

SUNDAY! I look for it every weekend. But after swimming session, I am so BORING at home. Mum and Dad went out and I left at home, facing the comp in the "Oven" Room. DAMN HOT! There are less people online on Facebook on Sunday noon. All went out for family day,i guess. 

It is so Speechless that I am so NOOB. I went for driving lessons for 16 hours, and I passed JPJ test, but still yet I don't know HOW TO DRIVE (cars other than my coach's kancil or kancils). I was like KANCIL is the best car in the world, for now. I think I will not feel this way after I get to know how to drive the CARS other than Kancil. I can't go swimming if I want. Thats what I excited about when I know I was going to take License. But now. NAH, who asked you to be so stupid at driving /.\

I decided to take Form 6 and gave up UNMC, as the fees are SO EXPENSIVE, and...my family can't afford it seriously. How good if I got flying colours in SPM/.\ NVM, Form6 will be fine TOO!=D

It doesn't mean I really give up, I just take another pathway that suits me to achieve my dreams :)

Enjoy Your SUNDAY! =D

2.23p.m

29.04.2012

氧气

如果，可是，但是，好像，可能，应该，或许等等等，经常在安慰自己的时候出现

那真的是安慰吗？还是理论？或是说服会比较贴切？

在这我不知用什么词语去形容的“行为”中，我乱了，我疯了，怎么也找不出个答案，怎么也找不到平衡点，矛盾很多，理论很多，像是身边有好多的声音，脑海会出现假想，会想把假想变成现实，然后矛盾又来了，理论又挺身而出，那些曾经在耳边回荡的声音更加喧哗，脑子受不了，然后我就...流泪哭了。乌...这就是转牛角尖吗？......

好希望 有个人 在我难过伤心生气的时候 能听我说 以能安慰我的方式安慰我 =')
快出现嘛~~~ :"/

什么 是寂寞？
20.04.2012

可能 爱你

    那天耐不住无聊 看了《我可能不会爱你》。很好奇戏名，为什么是 我可能不会爱你 而不是 我不可能会爱你 ？是因为...可能随时会变成不可能，而不可能就是不可能 (?) 看过了才知道，原来这部戏，那么的耐人寻味。好久没看戏..看得那么 "投入" 了，虽然这部爱情剧，只会让我感伤，不会让我大哭，除非一念之差，想哭了就会哭。至少这样 "投入" 情绪会有些起伏，生活情绪不那么平淡 乏味。

 
    戏如人生，人生如戏。有时候，一首歌或一部戏剧就是记载光阴的标签。

   “如果你爱我，你会来找我...” 以后如果我谈恋爱了，我会是怎样的一个情人 ？呢

    考车，除了实力，也得靠运气。谢天谢地，on the road的考官是个女考官，不会那么蛮不讲理。在路口转弯时，他叫立刻转，我却当没听见，到线再转，她扶得紧紧地，好像很怕那样，坐这些不知驾车能力如何的新手的车很像玩过山车厚~

   好感谢教车的AUNTY，她真的是个好教练。若不是她教得好，耐心地教，耐心地讲解，我不会那么顺利通过考试，也不会驾车。一个社会观察家，懂得看透人的性格的教练。

    等过几天拿到驾驶执照，我以后能合法驾车了。想去游泳也就能自己去游了。现在除了游泳，我还想不出一个人驾车能到哪儿去。近来就是很想很喜欢游泳。却尤其有时难免会很" 囧 "，当小红来敲门时。



通过了考试，拿了驾照，并不是结束，而是人生路程旅途的开始。



    把凌乱的房间在周末空闲打扫了一番，总算是像样一点了，也让我一开始时吓了一跳 有点不习惯床边的那个柜子上那么整洁没有哩哩啦啦一大堆东西。



原来大力呼气，像叹气那样呼气，对舒缓紧张的心情是有帮助的 = )



晚安。
17.04.2011