神魂颠倒

讨厌乱七八糟的东西

却明明自己的房间过了这么久都没整齐的一天，或许就有那么一刻而已。



计较，我很计较。
为什么只有我在忍受这些，你却可以说了就算，没想过我的感受吗？或许就是好玩吧。正好我就是这样爱钻牛角。

那么固执的朋友，怎么忍受？
那么爱闹脾气的朋友，怎么包容？




我根本无地自容了。



觉得好久好久没开心，真心地笑。

好累...



水瓶，这就是吧。
这里不是分享的花园，而是当有感触觉得悲伤才来的秘密花园吧。


把能看见月亮或满天星的日子，当作是幸福的lucky day。

只要看见kitty看着我的样子，就觉得安慰: )很幸福呢~



近来躺在床上抱着抱枕，有种味道让我觉得宝宝就在我身旁的错觉。
韩剧看到一半，有种问道宝宝那臭死人的粪便味~


我的天啊~这是压力吗？



我根本没资格——这或许只是我逃避现实的一种借口。
我时常让宝宝敲到他那可爱的脑袋瓜。
娘就常骂我。一直这样敲会变笨啊~
这时，啊*抓头发！压力来了！~


播三年前15岁的我买的barney的碟子，每天都播映给宝宝看，他们却在玩。
啊！都几岁了，还看barney看地那么入神。:P



怀疑自己是不是病了。
醒着却不是醒着，白天感到昏昏的，像在做梦一样。


最近好像只有在看韩剧时，让我有投入的感觉，其他时间...我不见了。


那颗心脏，仿佛热不起来了。
这就是糟糕，很糟糕，透顶。


不想因为这是篇很消极的文章而硬硬写下什么洒脱而开心的结尾。
就这样吧！

我是陈旆倪。
=)

怎么连打部落，也有种压了了。。。

13.01.2012

鱼儿水中游

至少，在我难过，在我非常需要一把声音时，

有一张碟能给我安慰，

让我逃离烦恼，让我进入她的世界，左耳听着她的声音，把右耳留给自己，把自己的灵魂暂时交给她。

这时，我和Fish有着共鸣。

鱼儿鱼儿水中游，自由自在地游，带着我= )

          我很糟糕，有时甚至会想象自己短见的时候。做人，我真不会。还学不会。以前觉得当狗很好，不用考试不用选择不用烦恼不用被唠叨。就算听着主人的唠叨或苦水，也可以假假听可是却当耳边风，不影响自己因为也听不懂，只要知道他难过就好，就借双耳给当作安慰安慰。不然，主人压力大时，让他摸摸我抱抱我，让他解解压，谁叫研究专家指出我的毛毛有这种功用，我也可以更听见主人的心，和他有一颗心的距离。当主人在夜深人静时感到寂寞也不再寂寞，至少有我在身边，让他知道就算他感到自己一个人，至少有我的陪伴能一直陪着他，至少我能给些安慰，至少我心里只有他，我也拥有他，虽然他拥有好多。

那一刻，我感到自己的卑微，无知。转牛角尖，你们别再这样下去了，否着这东西会伴随一生在左右。

把时间留给自己，让自己当读者，看得更开。

唱片的力量

1.09a.m

10.01.2012

Nahh

像个缩头乌龟，一遇到害怕的事就把头藏起来，一句话也不说，一动也不动。

我，这个悲观主义者，我，好想一把给自己的脸盖下去，一盖下去就醒的那种，一把不行，两把三把四把五把...或许一直打下去也醒不了...

新的一年里，我还是没把自己的情绪处理好。

总是要把自己搞得回想起来都当个缩头乌龟，羞愧地令人无话可说...

我也不想这样的，真的。

内心那黑暗的一面，不愿意表露，却把它画在脸上，想要别人看懂，却又不敢被知道丢脸不知怎么去说的那些

敏感，自我意识强，小气，冷...

自我意识，我不能把自己融入大家的世界...不能，很难。

虽然我不知所谓的FOREVER ALONE漫画是舍，但我承认，人是个个体，自己的路还是得自己走，自己的问题还是得自己面对。

by Loser Yean,

08.01.2012

First post of 2012 is such so random

It's been daysss I didn't update my blog~~~~This is because my house internet line cut!!! and after few days finally I can browse the net,but I haven't think what should I post. Now, I know what should I post after I read blogs of others. They blogged about how they celebrate their Christmas, New Year Eve, new year, things done in 2011,and some wishes to achieve in 2012.

But, sadly,when I know what I should post, I got to go on bed early...because Tomorrow I m going to listen Undang with Xinderella and Princess Anne!!! How pleasure am I to go with them but not alone :) Though, I felt a bit guilty for asking them to join me>.<, Am I feel like pursue or force -ing ? :( Whatever! As long as they said yes at last and they don't mind, I guess.

After read a few pages of the book of undang, I wanna say, SAYA NAK JADI PEMANDU YANG BERTANGGUNGJAWAB! On the road, accidents are big matters, so as the responsible of drivers~( Don't play play ar! )


Got to sleep, It's 12.33AM. Sweet dreams for me, nightmares please go away! :)

XOXO,

Yean Yee

Be yourself

Feel like writing something, but not to, cause, blog still blog, it is like a door.

I don't ever wanna be a stupid.

Angry by myself was so wrong and stupid, stingy too.

Thanks to my blossom friend that give me supports and consolation,Japanese video pranks and chit-chat. A friend that want and remind me to think positively, always. I was thinking I think too much. Surprisingly when I flashed back, I found that She didn't judge much or not and straight give advice, that just let people who suffered feel even more relief. 

Left those deepest inner heart with my D and just bluffing here.

I think I got the potential to dance ballet. But it's too late. Chances past, not for my age to start dance. I got to look forward! Anyway, I still LOVE Ballet.

//Don't you ever take it serious about this post :P

Worried about the words from my mouth and what I writing or wrote...Isn't that this world is...annoying and stress? Suggest: Stay peace.

Let your present be your present.

Sincerely,

YY

29.12.2011

以后呢？

我们走在同一条路上

随着时间的变迁

不知不觉地

你走在前面，看着前方

我在你后头，看的是你的背影...

我们不再保持联络不再分享芝麻一点的小事儿

是成熟了长大了

还是...陌生了...

当我们不再同步，熟悉的感觉会渐渐消失，陌生尴尬是剩下的。

我不相信什么所谓真正的朋友就算几年不见面不联络之后再遇见还会像以前一样，不会尴尬...

因为我不希望因为这句，你就可以...完全把我抛置于你生活之外

没有表示。

我不喜欢被抛弃，谁也不喜欢

因为现在这样和以前的落差很大，让我产生了被遗忘的错觉

心理不平衡之余，心情还很糟糕。

却又得学会成熟面对...

我...

这矛盾的状况，我想诉诉苦，然后装没一回事。

“我要飞到柔佛去啦！”   :"(

需要长大了，吧。旆倪

圣诞节

别安慰

I am a nanny now. Nanny?! You are joking!? Actually I am starting to learn babysitting my sis's son, he has to call me Aunt>.<. Luckily he just 11 month, don't know how to talk yet! I have to wake up about 8 or 9, I still not get used to it, I feel tired easily of the day~

It's Christmas! That's something I sad and worried for. I almost cry for it, God!  But I try to be enjoy and Happy~ I think I did it, if I do not start the chat with someone. But still, I really enjoy it.

A christmas movie, the snacks I can find in my house, and my doggie-Kitty as accompany, A simply christmas eve. Lonely Christmas? not so, cause I have Kitty and Choy Wei, we chatted before 12 and we both are in the same situation. And I can say I was satisfied with it,this Christmas eve "celebration"! 

What I dream about Celebration of Christmas eve is A dinner with family, the moment is the most lovely one. Or a dinner with relatives at some restaurants or someone's house having steamboat or simply gathering dinner, a countdown party with them: ) I wish for it. Someday, my dream will come true. I am waiting for it. 

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

熬夜成了习惯总会一不小心又熬夜了...

友情需要经营，即使曾经是再要好的朋友。

即便我们有一时的联络

我...不知足。

我们之间谁对谁错好像不曾存在，或许存在也不曾摊牌，到底谁是谁非更让我不敢开口坦白自己的感受。

也许是我想太多...

但也让我好伤心...

我以为没人看我的部落格，更加没想到你原来关注着...

=D

一个小小的comment，让我觉得很窝心好兴奋。

谢谢你，好贴心:)

Knowing nothing is better than knowing something.

I think I hate stupid consolation words. 

Shoulders, Ears, and Hugs are just better, doesn't it?

Xoxo,

YeanYee

It's Christmas!